Life Through a Window


Charlie Gordon likes cool kids.

"I know I shouldn't hang around the college when I'm through at the lab, but seeing the young men and women going back and forth carrying books and hearing them talk about all the things they're learning in their classes excites me."

That is why we are having Cool Kids by Echosmith today.


“Intelligence is one of the the greatest human gifts. But all too often, a search for knowledge drives out the search for love. This is something else I've discovered for myself very recently. I present it to you as a hypothesis: Intelligence without the ability to give and receive affection leads to moral breakdown, to neurosis, and possibly even psychosis. And I say that the mind absorbed in and involved in itself as a self-centered end, to the exclusion of human relationships, can only lead to violence and pain.”


I think, of all the virtues I lack in the world, empathy is the one I lack the most. It could probably because I am young, selfish and unkind at the moment but part of myself tells me that I could just get on it when I am older and wiser. Right now, I reckon that, in my early 20's, I have to focus on my own self improvement and growth. 


“Intelligence and education that hasn't been tempered by human affection isn't worth a damn.” 

When I got time to think alone, I realized that I have been so desensitized that I don't even notice that I am starting to neglect the people I love and I hate. Anyway, I finished Flowers for Algernon (Daniel Keyes) a week ago and have reflected some of my views in life. The feeling was amplified actually, by the book. I feel that little by little, I am being benumbed by adulthood and my youth - my innocence and probably my honesty and sincerity, is gradually being swallowed piece by piece by my future older self. And you probably noticed. I did previously post some things that seem off and sullen.

I won't mention much about the book. I don't want to spoil it. It's an easy and fast read. You should be fine. The gist would be Charlie, a mentally challenged person, had been writing these progress reports as a means of documentation of the enhancement experiment done unto him. As he progresses in this experiment, he improves and becomes smarter and ultimately learns about adult things and learns to actually become one. It ends in a sad note where he realizes that sometimes however many languages you speak or however many awards and recognition you get, without the ability to recognize the people around you, you ought not to be content and happy.


“The only question now is: How much can I hang on to?” 


Not everyone agrees. I used to think I don't need anyone but my sister. I soon realized that my sister has her own life to struggle strangle with. She has her own set of friends and has her own universe to traverse in and I got to have my own one as well, and I need a different set of friends too, a different set of activities, and probably, a whole different set of clothes (haha!). 


“Because I want to see. I've got to know what's going to happen while I'm still enough in control to be able to do something about it.”


While I'm young, I feel that I need to start ahead and get things straightened. Or at least, get my life ready to be lived in. I can't just stay inside the house and watch my life through the window.


“I don’t know what’s worse: to not know what you are and be happy, or to become what you've always wanted to be, and feel alone.”


And lastly, here's some RAC!



Until we meet again

Keep busy and move.

Song for the day: Until We Meet Again by  Tonik Ensemble




It's so difficult to satisfy the expectations of different people. It's so difficult to make up a plan to maintain all these attachments. These social responsibilities.

And yet it's so easy to forgo and end up as a lonely soul.

Anyway, that's just a thought.

Here I have some snapshots from Nagoya, Japan.














Best Vices with Good Advises

Listening to Yaarrohs

Sometimes it helps to distance yourself from where you belong. Had to go far away to look closer into my self.


Now that I'm back, I feel like I've left a piece of me someplace else.


I finally got to look into myself. It was empty. I have no motivation. I have no desire. Is this sadness? I need to look somewhere else.

And I did. It's nice to have company every once in a while. Friends make you feel good. Friends and vices make it better. Friends with good advises and vices make it all well, even for just a moment.

Until next year, I'll see you again.