Here we have a screenful of colors,
With smiling made up faces,
Shining seamless wears,
And synchronized body movements.
On cue one - entrance clap,
Unending friendly hellos.
On cue two - lined up glass bottles,
Unending beer refills.
On cue three - pure white dust,
Unending boom of invincibility.
Follow banal patterns -
Pixels scattered and checkered.
Beating lines rising high and low.
Non-stop blinking boxes.
Eyes closed and then blackness.
Whistling in the dark.
"We promise you,
You'll be all better."
Today's playlist: CAZZETTE and Knife Party
I want to know and learn so many things. I am a hungry dragon seeking for knowledge. To know, for me, is to feel secure and grounded. To know, for me, adds value to the self and hopefully, also to the soul. It feeds me and I am greedy. I lust for books, for articles, for videos, for information. Maybe one of the reasons why I enslave my talents to the information industry.
I am curious and it could kill me. But I have to continue on reading, I have to beat on and continue to know. It brings me so much excitement to know. It fills me and at the same time it makes me hungry. It outbalances and balances.
I want to know who, what, how, when, where, why. I want to know. I want to consume so bad that I fear that I am consumed by something bigger that someday I'll know about.
And I forget other things. I ignore other things. Other things that could be or not be important to me but is relevant. But I can't stop.
It's such a gratifying feeling to know that someone else in this world loves you unconditionally and would be so horrified to live without you. I can't help but be happy.
The simple words and actions, the small deeds that someone else does to tell you that you are cherished and loved makes the heart overflow with joy.
"...it seemed that his heart would be shaken out of his body so great was its ecstasy."
I wish everyone to feel the same.
Heartfelt music by Wyatt
Honest title from Damned by Chuck Palahniuk
Happy quote from Call of the Wild by Jack London
I am as busy as the rain clouds today. So many people and things to rain on today. I'll just dance through the night until all work is over.
I am busy yet I am happy. It's a nice happy. I'm also excited.
So many things to learn. I need to catch up.
I just finished a book over some warm pandesal yesterday. Blink by the Malcolm Gladwell. It's a great book for marketeers. I'll talk about it soon.
Can't stop moving, we gotta go and seize the night.
After I get through today's work, I will play Watch Dogs Til' Dawn...
keep my Eyes Open until I finish Act III.
But before all that, I need to Get It Together,
do my best and Seize the Night.
Good music from Foxe Basin
Good remix from Tobtok
Good bread from Pan de Manila
No dream can last forever,
unless this chase becomes a fever,
Not a sickness, more of a disease.
A false sense that we can do things with ease,
A false thought of gleeful aspirations,
A false hope on getting there with no altercations.
Nothing can be done in a breeze,
You're there in an indefinite freeze,
While others progress in leaps and bounds.
Time to sleep on cold ground.
Envy tastes so bitter on the tongue
Carry on and come back in a bang.
Get up, you can't wait much to long
Some thoughts up above
Some Herman Hesse on the title
Some EchoDroides to listen to
I have nothing on my mind.
No worries. No skeptics. Just fresh rainy season air.
It's a dark and rainy day here in Manila. It's all cool and cold.
I heard a storm is coming over again. Be safe everyone!
But I haven't figured it out.
Alas, I need to re-examine myself.
I need to realize my short-comings before I bite the bullet.
And before it's all too late.
Ah, decisions, relations, and inhibitions.
On the side note, congratulations to Germany and the winning goal scorer, Mario Gotze. I really wanted Germany to win the FIFA World Cup 2014.
I'm listening to MTNS today. Such a cool and minty music for a cool and breezy day.
A while ago, a guy friend asked me how long does it take for girls to get over anyone/anything. He's in a quite a stupor right now. The gal he's dating seems to be stuck in dreaming of reconciling with her ex. She's still in a daze of her previous relationship which was purportedly also the girl's best friend for a long time. Rad. I told him to decide slowly and think on how much she likes this girl. But if this ensues, have an honest talk and confess on how awkward it is for him to be dating some one who still seems to be taken by someone else. Anyway, I hope him good luck.
From my experience, I realize that the best way to get over anything is to be busy with something else. When I have something interesting on hand, I usually lose track of time. Well, I can't speak for everyone. Only time can tell.
Lost Track of Time
It really is all up to you. For some people, they have a hard time moving on because of their own fears and insecurities.
In the mean time, enjoy the music of MTNS
When I am not able to listen to music, more likely, I will lack motivation to do good. It's a mental thing and I know, I need to learn. But having a beat in your head that you can follow to while moving about your business at work and at home is really helpful.
I have a whole lot other 900+ and counting tracks jumbled into one ugly hair ball here. Here. And here.
I am very simple-minded to the point of naivety. I take joy from simple things and I prefer looking at things in it's simplest, truest form. I like doing things with less, maximizing all means, utilizing my time well.
I feel that in doing things, whether it be cooking a traditional meal or jogging, the simplest method is king. I think I get far more substance with it as well. I feel more fulfilled with taking enough, rather than being overwhelmed with too much. Having too much just complicates my psycho. I don't know what to do with it.
The more I know, the more I feel that I don't know. The more people I am with, the more I feel alone. The more food I eat, the more problems I get health-wise. The more meds I take, the more I feel weak. The more groups I belong to, the more I feel that I don't belong. The bigger the house I get, the more it feels less like home. The more cash I get, the more needy and poor I become. Is it just me or does this age just necessitates multiple layers of complexities - of misunderstandings?
Things, events, relationships are there for a purpose and isn't that purpose all that's there is to be. It's always better to have that reset button where things, people, events, become just the way they are supposed to be.
It's strange how everyone just wants more.
Maybe it's Time To Realize the real purpose of things and stop and focus there.
My mom said once, the best way to know if an ice cream company has good quality ice cream is to taste their vanilla ice cream. She said this because if you find joy in it's simplest truest form, it probably is a really good ice cream.
Up there is a Vonnegut flavored Title and some fluffy Lemaitre songs
Phew. It's been a while. I have nothing new on me right now. Just a thought or a side note that things I want can't all be mine. I need to learn to wait things out. For it to bear a sweeter fruit. I'm too hasty. With everything. Whether it be in baking, relationships, the stock market or in my career, I need to wait. I need the right timing.
Well, when everything's looking dim, I could just always submerge myself into deeper thought by listening to music.
Here's a a product of my devastation over losing things because of not waiting.
The Stock Market
I have no problem with you.
I don't mind your looks, nor your romance books,
It's just you don't give a flying fuck
whether you're stepping on someone else's luck.
Greedy Grinch, who can't be in a pinch,
We'll it's just game, we try, we lose and face the shame.
Praise God when we earn some gains,
Curse him when we lose the reigns.
But hey, you're free as a bird,
You have a brain to think and observe,
Don't go about on whatever's been heard.
And you can't blame me nor the Father Almighty,
Wolf, it just had to be.
Dang, I really feel bad for letting go of that DD.
The Society, people together for sobriety
but unfortunately, there's you and me,
Selfish and giddy,
who just can't help it but watch and be folly.
It's over. Enough.
All throughout I was smiling,
Well, bets are down, with regretful growls,
Too bad, fool, you thought you were winning.
You can't always win like the Gracies.
P.S. Chuck Palanhiuk's Rant on Title
Change always happens for the better. Maybe I'm a little too optimistic but I believe that the changes that have driven to be at the present are meant to be. I'm not saying everything is destined. It's a question of being. I think, it's just, those with the power to will things have willed things. Those who have ignored or failed to command their lives have let others, may it be other people or just certain events, will things for or against them.
It's so wrong to feel apathetic towards people with less but that's just how I feel right now given the economic restraints and the political awareness needed in my country at the moment. I feel no remorse nor any kind of pity for people who beg for a living. I feel no pity because they don't have self-respect.
I admire people who have very limited economic freedom and was born in such a lowly position and yet do not juxtapose themselves as pitiful. They are penniless but still full of hope and strength. People look down at them but they humbly and courageously look up and make their climb up the ladder. They live on and work hard for their own and their family's futures.
They have dreams.
How easy is it for you to trust?