It's so wrong to feel apathetic towards people with less but that's just how I feel right now given the economic restraints and the political awareness needed in my country at the moment. I feel no remorse nor any kind of pity for people who beg for a living. I feel no pity because they don't have self-respect.
I admire people who have very limited economic freedom and was born in such a lowly position and yet do not juxtapose themselves as pitiful. They are penniless but still full of hope and strength. People look down at them but they humbly and courageously look up and make their climb up the ladder. They live on and work hard for their own and their family's futures.
They have dreams.
How easy is it for you to trust?
How do you measure or weigh trust?
How do you get people to trust?
I'm a fool and no matter how I think about it, it's difficult to come by. It's a valuable resource. It's an asset. Once it's lost, it's hard to rebuild. Businesses, deals, networks, relationships, lives are based on trust. Who do we trust?
I've been thinking. I trust because I entrust my future, whatever kind of future it is. I trust a bank because I entrust the future of my monetary resources. I trust the company because I entrust a portion of my future career and growth to them. I trust my friends and family because I am assured of their care and company for a lifetime or length of time in the future. And with my trust on them, they trust on me too. What is trust made out of then? Conditions? Money? Faith? Can trust be unconditional? Even if I trust, I am unsure if my trust is enough to give me a good future. My future depends on those who I entrust and how I trust.
Thinking of the future is such a nuisance.
I'm young and still a fool. My judgement is not solid. All I can lean onto is myself and the trust I've given the people and communities around me.
I just need to hang on and trust. Tiwala.
trust #staystrongexo
Could we all stop for a short moment and appreciate La Roux's new single Let Me Down Gently which is finally on soundcloud.
Not all people agree but I think she's timeless. I mean, besides from Robyn and Madonna, she one of those people I go back to and listen. She's one of those people to watch out for. She has her own style, her own genre and I think it works!
Let Me Down Gently
Let me down gently,
Let me down gently,
That's what I think I need.
But when you let me down gently,
It still feels it hard, hard.
Turn me into someone good.
That’s what I really need.
Tell me that I’m someone good
So we’re not so far apart, apart.
I hope it doesn't seem like I’m young, foolish and green.
Let me in for a minute,
You're not my life but I want you in it.
Set me up slowly,
That’s what you do to me.
Oh you set me up slowly
Now I can’t come down, down.
Let you down gently,
That's what I think you need.
But when I let you down gently,
And you try to hide your frowns, frowns.
I hope it doesn't seem like I’m young, foolish and green.
Let me in for a minute,
You're not my life but I want you in it
And I hope it's sinking in,
Left behind your perfect skin.
There’s a part of you that’s free
And I know that there’s a place for me.
Let me down gently
That's what I think I need
But when you let me down gently
It still feels it hard, hard.
Turn me into someone good
That’s what I really need.
Tell me that I’m someone good
So we're not so far apart, apart
(Let me down, let me down)
I hope it doesn't seem like I'm young and foolish and green.
Let me in for a minute,
You're not my life but I want you in it.
And I hope it's sinking in,
Left behind your perfect skin.
There’s a part of you that’s free
And I know there’s a place for me.
The lyrics though, they're golden. No matter how people say that her music sounds weird or off, her lyrics are golden. I think this is one of the main reasons why I really like her songs. When I listen to her, I just can't but leave the repeat button on.
In for the Kill
We can fight our desires,
But when we start making fires.
We get ever so hot,
Whether we like it or not.
They say we can love who we trust,
But what is love without lust?
Two hearts with accurate devotion,
What are feelings without emotions?
I'm going in for the kill.
I'm doing it for a thrill.
Oh, I'm hoping you'll understand.
And not let go of my hand.
I'm going in for the kill.
I'm doing it for a thrill.
Oh, I'm hoping you'll understand.
And not let go of my hand.
I had my hopes out on the line.
Well, they'll be ready for you in time.
If you leave them out too long,
They'll be withered by the sun.
Full stops and exclamation marks,
My heart stopped moving 'fore I start.
How far can you send emotions?
Can this bridge cross the ocean?
I'm going in for the kill.
I'm doing it for a thrill.
Oh, I'm hoping you'll understand.
And not let go of my hand.
I'm going in for the kill.
I'm doing it for a thrill.
Oh, I'm hoping you'll understand.
And not let go of my hand.
Let's go to war to make peace.
Let's be cold to create heat.
I hope in darkness we can see.
And you're not blinded by the light from me.
Ohhhh.
Ohhhh.
I'm going in for the kill.
I'm doing it for a thrill.
Oh, I'm hoping you'll understand.
And not let go of my hand.
One of her more popular songs, Bulletproof, thanks to Anna Kendrick and the film, Perfect Pitch. I bet you haven't heard this original version. Don't mention it. You're welcome.
I basically like all of her released songs but I really wish she writes some more slow songs.
There are times when you are up all night working/slacking because you can't sleep. When insomnia strikes you at the wrong hour, at the wrong day, you're left with nothing but a wandering mind and tired still open eyes.
Darn it.
And your brain keeps running, keeping you from sleeping. Making a fuss about those little creaks and noises out your window. Keeping you creative with your imagination until that thought strikes. That thought when you are compelled to think about your life and what you are doing and the purpose why you are still on earth. You try to think of other more trivial things like flowers and unicorns but you can't escape. Anything you think of just points back to these weird-ass crazy life philosophical questions. You want to stop but you're left there all night, eyes wide open, sleep deprived, worrying about your life.
It sucks.
It sucks.
So yesterday, I was up all night, lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, conjuring up why I lack success drive in life. I need a motivation to move forward. I want to have a motivation that's immaterial but I just kept thinking about things like new shoes, new house, new car, new country. I want a motivation that relates to my future and other people but can't even motivate myself to work hard for other people.
So a few hours later, I gave up on trying to sleep and on that future-life idea and listened to Cherub's music. Have a great time listening to them. And sleep well too.
Nande Wakaru No, Mr Little Jeans
Weather is belligerent.
Feedback is abominable.
Work is suppressive.
Got my phone stolen. Got scolded. Had a bad hair cut. Shit happens and I know I don't have a reason to complain. What do I know. I shouldn't be too hard on myself or on anyone.
It's not a great day but it doesn't mean I can't have great music. I could just listen to Mr Little Jeans.
I could learn from my mistakes and just go Back to the Start.
This day shall pass and all of this is just a Good Mistake.
I could learn from my mistakes and just go Back to the Start.
But maybe it's easier to Runaway
to somewhere not so far, maybe to the Suburbs.
to somewhere not so far, maybe to the Suburbs.
Just ignore the random meows throughout his songs.
Lately, on my free time, when I'm not painting, working out, cleaning or reading, I've been playing Tiny Farm. I blame Silver Spoon. I don't play it that often though. Maybe once or twice in three days? When I have time only.
I've been looking for reader apps and I found Feedly. I hate the fact that it only reads recent posts. I don't like it because what I usually do is read from the least recent post of the blog or site I am following and read up to the present. Sometimes, I don't read everything so I just bookmark the last page I've read.
Anyway, the reason why I needed a blog reader is because the other day, I was up all night/morning for work and I stumbled upon this gallery. It's a community of amazing Japanese artists. It's mixed, some of them do digital art, some do fixtures and figures but I like those who do traditional art. I like all of them! I especially liked and bookmarked the following artists.
Capsule by zain7 on deviantART
kitchen by zain7 on deviantART
I don't remember how I got to check them out. I was just clicking links like there's no tomorrow.
And this is not my cat. It's a stray cat I found while walking.
Don't forget to check out Cashmere Cat and the artists! They're great. Bye-ni!
As per previous email, at the moment, I am really snowed under and I'm deep down there.
Have you ever had those days when you thought things were going the right direction only to realize that you're the one going on the the wrong direction? Mistakes, I keep on doing them. And I've been doing them unconsciously over and over. I got to redo things because I redid things I shouldn't have. This is why I've been so busy. Dang, I feel like I haven't slept for weeks. So this is how it feels like to be busy and living? I never felt so compelled to work so hard and at the same time yearn for more sleep. I guess I feel more like an adult now.
Well, people do need something to keep on going on right? I got myself listening to Last Lynx. I really like their song Killing Switch though I like their other songs too. Wow, it's been more than a year since I got to know them.
I like that they're versatile. They keep changing up their music (in a good way). I feel like they always give me a different vibe every time they release new music. They're like that friend who changes his or her image every time a break ends, comes back looking better and mature all the time.
This time Last Lynx gives us more pop with a littler dark indie overtone. I do like their usual funk just like on Killing Switch but I think this works too.
